Rotten One

New York i'm come'n for ya baby!

Oh
I wish I really cared what people whom I haven't seen in years say
If I ever see any of you again, fucking test me, I'm not 15 years old again
you cant talk behind my back and think you can get away with it
and if you support it then fuck you too. I dont have ANY time for nonsense
I'm doing better than all of you.  I have a better life than all of you.

A thank you to my real friends and I know i have many of you. oh yeah
FUCK YOU COURTNEY! you want to talk shit about me, we will see who comes out on top.

:D eat shit.

Homeward Bound
Get ready for it!

Just moved into our new home on capital hill
no internet no cell phone
sorry
times are hard right now but good
its like I've started all over again with my flaws all around me still
we will make it through
see you all soon !

With everyone dying lately, i'm starting to wonder if i'm next

PS: I might do something drastic or, just blow my fucking brains out.

Oh no!
Am I actually doing this again, why cant I find a place to call home and love it. I'm tired of travailing across this universe and not being able to be happy in one spot. Now don't get me wrong I do love a lot of people out here and I love my freedom in my own home but can I actually call it home... uh no.

I'm fucking losing it, losing my teeth and my mind. I don't know which I care more about. Good bye incisor tooth in the front, hello big fucking check from the dentist. Oh and where is my mind? wandering thinking about other boys other cities other diseases I can get. HELP ME!

Why cant I just stay in one place

WOW
Being back in Louisiana was fun but most of you made it apparent that i'm not really part for your life anymore. I had fun but it wasnt the same and a few of you were really rude. So now its back to Denver with I deal with out anyone. Lets see how many cities I can runaway to in 2008. WTF?

I miss a life I never had... does that even make sense?

God, that was strange to see you again, introduced by a friend of a friend.


But I am so happy I got to see you again, why did it take us so long?

Not to bring up the past, but since I am a bitter asshole... I am so amazed by how many people I hear saying horrible things about you, but you still act superiour of everyone. How did I put up with it for so long?! How does anyone put up with it? I think 99% of the problem is that you're a fucking ticking-timebomb and anything and everything can set you off, so if I was a big cunt I would probably still be putting up with it.
Thank god i'm a big dick

you're such a funny story full of mostly lies... all fiction
you have so much nerve to act the way you do... every time I see you now all I can think about is whos style you are pulling off and what you are hidding in your lies.

Get off your high horse and realize that you are no better than anyone,

btw your overactive vocabulary is your worst Fucking ... I mean FUCKING! Trate!

and I hope we run into each other very soon because I've changed into a person who really cant hold there tongue and im going to fucking tear you apart!

GROW THE FUCK UP!

I bet you think this is about you, and you're sooooooo RIGHT!

Who got an amazing job today?
Oh yea me!

at The Parlor Highlands!

http://www.theparlour.net/      
Check it out!

Wish me luck I start tomorrow at 9am!

Not enough substance abuse...

A long day full of negatives, but It happened to snow lastnight. So I played with Alex's little brother all day in the snow to rase my spirits.

I need some things to get easier.
PS We found a 2 bedroom loft in downtown denver and its beautiful, pray that we get it!

I have so many questions to ask...
"where are you?"
"why you?"
"why wasnt I notified earlier so I could have gone to the funeral?"
why
why
why

but with no answers I have made it through the past few days. I'm so sorry I didnt come to see you. You begged me to but I just ignored it and left the state. I hope that you can still forgive me. I hope you are okay.

I need a sign of some sort to let me know I need to know!

I love you and when I said I didnt you and I both knew it was a lie. Remember the last time we saw each other? You were standing on the corner crying  while I drove off, you knew it would be the last time. I'm so sorry, but we have so many memorys. Even though you are gone, I will remember summer of 2006 for the rest of my life and when I die i hope you are the first person I see. You changed my life, you made me who I am, I have a tattoo on me dedicated to you. I hope you forgive me

I am praying every night, crying every night, hoping to see you in my dreams every night.


In memory of Brandon Stewart
1992-2007
RIP


Park that car, drop that phone, sleep on the floor, dream about me.

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that.
Now you're all gone got your make-up on and you're not coming back.